Anticipation and speculation

Two words that have been a constant on my mind these past few months. The latter word I have come to loathe. Speculation runs under my skin and fires up all of my anxiety nerves and sends them into overdrive. I really have to stop going down that rabbit hole when it starts. Anticipation of starting school, playing sports, going to work/school is definitely there. I’m hopeful L gets to go to school long term. I’m hopeful she gets to play sports. But my bar is set low to keep my disappointment bar low.